If you are even there. All I ask, is that you keep this emotional pain away. It's not fair that I cannot go more than a day at a time without wanting to cry. No one thinks this is true. I'm to strong for that. I would never let anyone see my true emotions, my true colors. I'm hostile, I'm selfish, I'm completely unorthadox. Whatever that means. I just cannot handle this anymore.
I'm beyond stressed out as of now. Maybe that is my why I feel like I'm going to fall apart into tiny pieces. Or maybe, I'm just letting things get ahead of me. Although my grades have got to be amazing right now. All I do is homework. Oh. And I work. Sounds real eventful. But this little time off from work is nice. Not having to work during the school week really. Gives me more time to do things I like for once.
But what do I honestly have to do? I tend to stay at the school later now. Maybe go to a wrestling match. Might as well be supportive of West right? Even if I hate that place more than anything. It's just not what I would look for in school. The people are less than desirable. I've given up on making friends since every person there is as fake as their coach bags they flaunt around. You're really cute before we get to know you.
It probably seems as if I have nothing to be worried about really. My level four classes are coming easily, I've got a lot of friends (Even though I don't really like most of them), I'm getting back into music big time, and my family is starting to fall back together. Why do I feel like such crap?
I don't know why I spent the time writing all of this but I have to admit, writing it all out has helped a lot. Well this biology paper on photosynthesis isn't going to write itself, is it? Oh how I would love that. I think that's all for now.
- Whitney.
:)
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